Underground ReLOVEution

But there must be a real giving up of the self. You  must throw it away 'blindly' so to speak. Christ will indeed give you a real personality: but you must not go to Him for the sake of that.  Al long as your own personality  is what you are bothering about you are not going to Hi at all.  The very first step is to try to forget about the self altogether.  Your real, new self will not come out as long as you are looking for it.  It will come when you are looking for Him.  Does that sound strange?  The same principle holds, you know, for more everyday matters. Even in social life, you will never make a good impression on other people until you stop thinking about what sort of impression you are making. Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.  This principle runs through all life from top to bottom. Give up yourself, and you will find you real self. Lose your life and you will save it. Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favorite wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end: submit with ever fiber of your being, and you will find eternal life.  Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not given away will be really yours.  Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him, and wiht Him everything else thrown in." - C.S. LEWIS